26th November 2007

It's been exactly 2 months since I firstly came to UK to study..
Sitting at my table again rethinking what I've been doing for this 2 months..
A lot of things happened, though it's just merely 2 months..
Happy, Sad, Excited, Depressed etc..
2 months of Forensic Science,
although didn't really get into Forensic Science,
we are now recapping the basic in A Levels..
So, I can get As in my assessments wasn't any big deal..
If I can't even get a B in my assessments will be a very big problem..
It means that I'm wasting time and money,
letting everybody down..
Christmas is coming, the atmosphere is cold..
But I didn't feel anything,
had my heart been numbed by severed pain?
Or it's just because I'm cold-hearted?
Still thinking whether the road I'm just chose is right or wrong..
Should I put feelings into it?
Even though I know I shouldn't have any feelings with it,
but this world is full of warmth..
How can I just be that cold-hearted,
and don't even care a single thing?
Hope that I'm not wrong.





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我很想爱他

天空 下起雨了
他撑的伞 在你的身边陪著
可是 我不快乐
因为看见 他脸上的笑
是很勉强的

我很想爱他 但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧 免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他 但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答

爱情 是模糊的
可怜的是 没有勇气选择
如果 再舍不得
这样下去 我们每个人都是受害者

我很想爱他 但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧 免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他 但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答

当爱情陷在危险边缘
是否都会伤痕累累
是否都会苦不堪言

我很想爱他 但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧 免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他 但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答

我很想爱他 但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧 免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他 但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答
爱情交会我们都放不下








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Miss You Finally

This songs tells everything what I feel now..

Miss You Finally - Trademark
But I miss you finally
But I miss you finally
Try to remember all these years
We shared the love we shared the tears
Thought that forever it would be
I realize you lie to me
I still hold on
Still dream of days when we were one
You played with my heart
You played with my mind
But I miss you finally
Right from the start
My love made me blind
But I miss you finally
All of these promises you made
This 4 letter word it seems to...
Baby it's hard to understand
Now that you're gone
We reached the end
I still believe
Still dream of days when we were one
You played with my heart
You played with my mind
Right from the start
My love made me blind
But I miss you finally
You played with my heart
You played with my mind
But I miss you finally
Right from the start
My love made me blind
But I miss you finally
You played with my heart
You played with my mind
But I miss you finally
Right from the start
My love made me blind
But I miss you finally
You played with my heart
You played with my mind
Right from the start
My love made me blind







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那朵花，我也不会去摘，直到知道有一个比我更你的人...

一个晚上

女孩终于鼓起勇气 对男孩说：「我们分手吧」

男孩问：「为什么？」

女孩 说：「倦了，就不需要理由了」
男孩 只抽烟不说话
女孩的心也越来越凉
『 连挽留都不会表达的情人,
能给我什么样的快乐？』

过了许久

男孩终忍不住说：「 要怎么做你才能留下来？」

女孩慢慢地说：

「回答一个 问题 ，如果你能答出我心里的答案，我就留下来。」

……………………

「比如我非常喜欢悬崖上的一朵花，而你去摘的结
果 是百分之 百的死亡，你会不会摘给我 ？」

男孩想了想说：「明天早晨告诉你答案好吗？」

女 孩的心顿时灰了下来

……………………

早晨醒来，男孩 已经不在

只有一张写满字的 纸，压在温热的牛奶杯下

第 一行，就让女孩的心凉透了

「 亲爱的，我不会去摘，
但请容许我陈述不去摘的理由

你只会用电脑打字
却总把程序弄得一塌糊涂然后
对着键盘哭
我要留着手指给
你整理程序；

你出门总是忘记带钥匙
我要留着双脚跑回来给你开门；

酷爱旅游的你,
在自己的城市里都常常迷路
我要留着眼睛给你带路；

每月（好朋友）光临时
你总是全身冰凉，
还肚子疼
我要留着掌心温暖你的小腹；

你不爱出门
我担心你会患上自闭症
我要留着嘴巴躯赶你的寂寞 ；

你总是盯着电脑
眼睛给糟蹋得已不是很好了
所以我要好好活着
等你老了
给你修剪指甲
帮你拔掉让你懊恼的白发

拉着你的手
在海边享受美好的阳光和柔软的沙滩
告诉你一朵朵花的颜色
像你青春的脸
所以
在我还不能确定
有人比我更爱你以前
我不想去摘那朵花…」

（女孩的泪滴在纸上形成晶莹的花朵）

抹净眼泪 ，
女孩继续往下看：

「亲爱的
如果你已经看完了
答案还让你满意的话
请你开门吧
我正站在门外
手里提着你最喜欢吃的鲜奶及面包…」

女孩拉开门
看见他的脸
紧张得像个孩子
只会把拧着面包的手
在她眼前晃啊晃

………………

我想这就是爱情或者生活
被幸福平静的包围时
一些平凡的爱意
总被渴望激情和浪漫的心忽略

爱！在双方引起的许多个微不足道的动作里 ，
从来就没有固定的模式，只有爱！

可以是任何一中平淡无奇的形式花朵、浪漫
不过是浮在生活表面的浅浅点缀

在它们的下面才是我们真真的生活...

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Things that amused me.. 习惯成自然

After one and a half months in Canterbury,
I could say that the bus drivers here are the people that amazed me the most..
Being a bus driver isn't easy,
a double decker bus driver is hard...
Driving a double decker bus,
through West Gate of Canterbury, (pics below) is definitely amazing..
just imagine you are sitting on top of the bus,
seeing the bus going through a gate that fits just nice,
with only centimetres from scratching your vehicle..
*Applause*..
If I drive that bus,
I don't think it still looks like a bus anymore after going through that gate..
Winter is coming,
daylight becoming shorter and shorter..
5pm, it's already very dark here,
and your mood are all gone..
Recently just in a very bad mood,
plus the weather and the few daylight.
Suffered depress a lot...

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Fire Alarm (Part 3) =.='

Ok, fire alarm Part 1 is officially recognized as malicious activation by some idiots!

1 November 2007,
I just reach back my room at about 3am,
after hanging around in one of my friend's place,
was about to sleep then suddenly came the stupid fire alarm again,
my first thought was tonight is Halloween,
for sure that some idiots playing around again,
but still I get my jacket and walk to my friend's room to look for them,
this college was desert at that time,
it's just that something not right,
when my friend is ready which actually had took us 5 mins staying at there and we shouldn't do so..
Then we proceed to the main entrance,
I saw people running towards another fire escape door,
wow, how come they looks so serious???
When we reach the entrance,
a campus security guard holding a torchlight,
yelled at us, "RUN! THIS ISN"T FALSE ALARM!",
I was like WTH???!!!
Then I saw firemen holding hose getting through the entrance,
I saw most of the people was standing behind the cordon place,
2 fire engines was parked near the car park..
and I still don't believe it..
Some people said they saw thick smoke..
We don't know what had happened,
just standing in the middle of the cold, shivering..
Guards ask us to proceed to Rutherford College, the college next to my college to stay for a while..
Below are the photos where we(refugees) taking refuge..
We can only move back into our rooms at 5am..
5 am you know??? This morning I have to wake up at 7.45am to do my laundry,
if not I won't have any clothes to wear..
Today at lecture I was half awake,
but still understand what lecturer saying..





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